sábado, 28 de novembro de 2009
What's art?
"Change"
quarta-feira, 25 de novembro de 2009
Assessment Task 1- Personalised Writing: My Favourite Poet
My favourite poet in the world is Fernando Pessoa. One of his most important characteristics is that he writes using the names of about seventy people invented by himself. Each one of these with a different life history, emotions and personalities.
Pessoa is my favourite poet because I feel a connection with these characteristics. The truth is that I’m not really certain of who I am, what my abilities are, my strengths, my fears, my weaknesses. I don’t even know if I’m a good or a bad person, if I’ve been able to make the right decisions. I don´t have a clear picture of what I should do in the future. And I guess it’s like I have various personalities, each one massively different from the others.
I think this has been a quest of mine since my childhood. In every memory I can remember there is always a sense of fear, confusion and ambiguity. I’ve always had dreams; I’ve always wanted to feel a sense of belonging. I’ve even tried to be a part of my village’s group of Scouts, because I wanted to do something useful for the community, but I ended up leaving it since I felt all we were doing was walking down the street with uniforms and chanting at the Church so the old ladies could look at us while praying.
The thing is I feel that I’m really different from my family, and I’m afraid to hurt or disappoint them by being this messed up person that I feel sometimes.
I guess I’ll just try to find out who I am, not only in the eyes of others, but also from my own point of view.
Until then, I’ll just cultivate all of my passions: plant caring, literature, biology and even different cultures and religions. At least it should give the peace of mind that I’m so longing for.
Change
Throwing the book onto the empty table beside her, she went home.
Later that night she woke up after a very realistic dream. It was as if she was sitting in this big, dark, poorly ventilated cinema looking at a blank screen. From time to time, the screen came alive with thousands of images, and suddenly, as fast as they had appeared, they would vanish again. The strangest thing about that was that all the images looked familiar to her, like she was seeing one of her favourite films, the ones she watches over and over again, but at the same time she felt that she was seeing herself, but a different self. She recognized the person and the situations, but it was like reading someone's journal.
She went to the kitchen to gran some Cheerios and a diet coke. Back in the living room, she sat down on the sofa with a blanket around her shoulders. The sweet prickling taste of the coke calmed her down. But for some reason, she couldn't stop thinking about the book. The «Change» book. She had a feeling telling her that it was connected to her dream. That restless feeling was returning to her. It was like a worm cralling up her spine. Her stomach felt full of a million tiny spiders trying to find their way out and all she could do was to try to drown them with the diet coke.
The next morning she got up pretty late, as she had only fallen asleep after 5 o'clock. Having already missed the most important lesson of the day she decided to have a walk in the park. She had been walking for three hours when she felt really tired and the heat was almost unbearable. She set down on a bench surrounded by fern and fuchsias. After a few seconds she fell asleep.
She was in the cinema again. Sitting in the front row. The film hadn't begun yet. She was the only person in the room, but she could hear voices coming to her through the open side door. She couldn't understand what they were saying, but she recognized the voices, she just couldn't say to whom they belonged.
She stood up and walked towards the door. With each step she could hear more and more of the sounds she was following. Finally she could understand them.
She was in a room that reminded her of her childhood bedroom. The walls were blue, there was a window with a white curtain, a wooden bed and lots of toys. There were four children. The tallest, a skinny blond girl with light brown eyes was clearly the leader. Then there was this fat boy, with a pleasant smile and red cheeks holding this cute litle brunnett girl with big dark eyes wuth an amazing shine and finally there was a blond girl, she was the middle one in terms of hight. She was very energetic, a huge grin dancing on her face with every step she took. She seemed to be invisible to all the four children, and didn't know who they were. All she knew was that she felt like she belonged there.
Suddenly all the kids ran through another door in the opposite wall. She felt the urge to be with them and so she followed the children.
In the next room there were only the two blond girls. They were older. The skinny one was watching TV and the energetic one was really quiet. She was reading a book and on the floor, beside her were three more books.
She finished the one she was holding, picked the others up and walked through another door.
When she followed the blond girl with the book through the next door she gasped. She was in her living room. The girl was on the sofa, her back to the door, a diet coke on the table beside her.
She walked to the front of the sofa and looked at the girl's face. Her huge grin had faded away, she was even quieter than she was in the previous room and the feeling of loneliness was all over the room.
Suddenly, she realized what she was seeing, she had been watching her own life from an outsider's prespective. For once in her life she had walked out of her shoes and analysed the situation. She realized how much life had change. How much she had changed. She finally knew what she'd been looking for, even if it had been with her all the time.
She woke up. The flowers around her made her remember when she had played with her cousins and sister, pretending the flowers were earings. She missed them so much.
She got up and picked up eight flowers. Then she headed home. Not the house where she lived right now. But the house where she'd been happy.
Changes
The following week she sold her little cramped apartment in a bad part of town, packed her bags, quit her hideous job and started driving, driving away from what would have been sooner or later her death, that town had been killing her, choking her essence, making her wilt like a flower, draining her or all her energy, so on that day as Marie drove away she left behing her past and her death, following the wind to find herself and happiness.
After a few months on the road Marie settled herself in Chicago, some people would say it was ironic since she had followed the wind and ended up in the "Windy City" but she said it was destiny, she found her true passion and gotten a job in a small flower shop, the owner Elizabeth was an elderly lady who spent her days teaching her the lenguage of flowers, Marie loved working there, feeling the silky petals of the flowers, immersing herself in a thousand different aromas, smiling when a young man bought flowers for his lover and grimancing when someone ordered flowers for a funeral... at the flower shop the days were never the same, nothing compared with the days back in her boring little town, unlike many people Marie wasn't homesick, she didn't long to go back there. Marie had made herself a home in Chicago.
The sun was setting and Marie was walking through the park, she could hear children laughing, dogs barking and birds chirping before retiring to their nests, it was Autumn (Fall) and there were orange, red and yellow leaves everywhere, "The perfect picture" she thought to herself, she was so deep in her thoughts she didn't notice where she was going until she felt her body collide with another.
"I'm so sorry!" she apologized
"There's no need to apologize, I was distracted as well" The man said with a laugh, Marie felt herself blush "I'm Anthony" he presented himself
"Pleasure to meet you, I'm Marie" They shook hands and he smiled at her, she smiled back, then she felt the wind blow
"Pleasure to meet you too Marie, I must go now, my nephews are looking for me, I guess I will see you around?" he smiled and waves walking toward 2 boys, she waved back. After he was out of sight with the boys Marie went back to making her way back home, she had rented a small apartment on the other side of the park. She usually had to cross the park to get to the flower shop and then to go back home.
Once home she was greeted by Juno, her cat as amazing as it seems it had been Juno to find Marie, she had plopped herself in Marie's lap one afternoon at the park and then followed her home... Now sitting at home in her favorite chaise-long Marie was thinking about her past, how so much had changed, she had been miserable back in the place she had once called "home", her job was boring and draining, almost like a vortex which sucks everything away from you, her parents had never cared much about her, they were divorced and had both remarried and built other families on their own... that always made Marie feel like a burden to them, now she had the exact opposite, she loved her job it made her feel alive, she had a family Elizabeth and her husband William were like the parents she never had a chance to have, a small apartment that wasn't falling apart like her old one, and even if it was a cat... she had someone to get home to...
Change was good
terça-feira, 17 de novembro de 2009
Short Story Assignement
It was a cold night when, last month, John decided to move to his family's farm back in Texas, after a tragic day.
One year ago, John had been working with his friends on the construction site.
On a sunny day, he was walking to get to work when he saw a woman being assaulted by two guys. He then, jumped to save her and the thieves run away. John asked her, "Are you ok?". She replied, "I'm fine, thank you for your help". It was love at first sight.
They started to hang out together, dating, and after a few months she decided to live with him, after he asked her.
On a rainy day, John had just arrived home when he saw his girlfriend lying on the floor. She was dead. He was paralyzed with fear. After a few seconds, the police entered their house and arrested John.
"Why did you kill her?" the policeman asked but John didn't answer and he wouldn't answer any of his questions, he was frightened and scared by all of this situation, so the police locked him up.
After a few days the policeman came and told him "You are free, someone paid your bail".
Outside, his friends were waiting for him. After he saw them, he felt great sorrow for the loss of his girlfriend. His friends told him "We believe you didn't do it, so we saved some money to get you out of prison".
Back on his family's farm, which had many horses and a beautiful landscape, he could rest and started to think who might have done this. Thats when he remembered his girlfriend talking about her ex-boyfriend and his gang that had been always stalking her.
That's when John took the plane to Florida to find her ex-boyfriend and get some answers.
When he arrived, he went straight to the house that his girlfriend had described when they were together, as the house where she had lived with her ex-boyfriend.
John had got there by morning, the ex-boyfriend opened the door and he asked him, "Did you kill her?" and he said "Yes, if she couldn't be mine, then she couldn't be anyone's. John felt this anger building up inside him, like a volcano ready to start erupting, and then he punched him, so they started to fight. In the middle of the fight, John got his weapon from his left jacket pocket and pointed at him saying "For her" and shot, killing him.
After that, John remembered his father's words, "Never take justice into your own hands". He felt regret and delivered himself to the police, he had thrown his life away because of revenge.
This was what I wrote for the short story assignement, hope you liked it.